1. Soft T-Shirt
shaking off everything that stuck around for way too long running ‘round while the sun beats down
and there’s your favorite song
and I can’t withstand the need to hold your hand
your t-shirt’s soft and it’s coming off
city views with so much to do
I wanna do it with you
I wanna do it all with you (GO!)
clap your hands if you’re feeling something
ANYTHING
anything at all
shaking off everything that stuck around for way too long
4. Elephants
all this talk of death
like we don’t want to think about it
and all the elephants in the room
raised their trunks in salute
another August trying to stay focused
and it’s gotta get better soon
and in the end we laughed
said “See you later!” (I hope to see you later)
and in the car we cried
pressed heads to shoulders
so thankful for getting older
I wanna get older
we all keep waking up
but never quite enough
one foot out the door with my back on the floor
my head keeps getting fuzzy
picking at scars that haven’t touched me YET
and it’s gotta get better soon
I hold onto this for reasons
that I don’t understand
just know sometimes it comes in handy
sometimes it’s all i can
every day is a play to leave all that behind
and i wonder where we’re headed
I wonder what we’ll find
and in the end we laughed
said “See you later!” (I hope to see you later)
and in the car we cried
pressed heads to shoulders
so thankful for getting older
I wanna get older
2. Trout
I’ve got a bad case of always taking the bait
and I can’t seem to shake you off
no, I can’t seem to shake you off |
you’ve got me on the hook
taking first, fifths, and sevenths looks
dangling like a little trout
there must be some way out
I have got to get out
you’ve got the greatest taste
not one thing is going to waste
and this is not good for me
no, this is not good for me
you’ve got me on the hook
taking first, fifths, and sevenths looks
dangling like a little trout
there must be some way out
I have got to get out
oh, what a mess
gasping for breath
over my head
you’ve got me fed up
there must be some way out
3. The Clown
everyone forgave you
they let you walk around
now what am I supposed to do
but be the clown?
I smile, wave, put makeup on my face
there’s never a dull moment since you left me all alone
and I’m so grateful for it
I’ll dance around and show it
everyone is tired of hashing out the detail
everyone is tired
but we’re ready to admit to things setting sail
so start clipping the wires
and smile, wave, put makeup on your face
there’s never a dull moment since you left me all alone
and I’m so grateful for it
I’ll dance around and show it
well I’ve always been the one to break
like a wave being carried away
but I’m told I should hold on as hard as I can
and never let it go
qnd smile, wave, put makeup on my face
no, there’s never a dull moment since you left me all alone
and I’m so grateful for it
I’ll dance around and show it
10. Hoodie
I looked like shit and wore my hoodie
the one from the bar
where you told me you loved me
and we held hands walking
down our neighborhood streets
and i’d never seen so much beauty
hands on skin
feel it all connect
reach out again
leave me a wreck
here in my hoodie
5. Missing Parts
sometimes I wonder what it would be like
it’s not something i’ll ever experience in my life it’s nothing that i ever wanted
it’s more a case of fear of missing out
cast out with the other gals
our missing parts keep us to ourselves
when conversations turn to what we can’t speak to
sorry we don’t wanna bum you out
dancing ‘round the freedom that it brings
I spend my time on different experiences
this is what i love about my life
oh, really what am I missing?
cast out with the other gals
our missing parts keep us to ourselves
when conversations turn to what we can’t speak to
sorry we don’t wanna bum you out
seeing it through other people’s eyes
they all think we’re lying to ourselves
so we’re cast out with the other gals
our missing parts keep us to ourselves
when conversations turn to what we can’t speak to
sorry we don’t wanna bum you out
6. My Body
my body is taking it out on me
I fall apart so easily
and i can’t help but recognize
it’s me behind these eyes
my body is mine and mine alone
I get to say who makes it kick and moan
and i can’t help but recognize
all these people trying to take what’s mine
iit’s a sorry state
it’s a work of art
it’s a blessed mess
it’s a wonder why
my body will leave me someday
I I already see there’s signs of decay
my body is all it can be
I look and that’s what i see
and i can’t help but recognize
it’s me behind these eyes
9. Chicago
driving down to Chicago
where else would we go for a quick getaway? the landscape is ever expanding
it’s sort of relaxing
it’s sort of a drag
but we’re moving so fast
the drag, it doesn’t last
the grey turns to green
it’s the impossible things
that keep floating by
the earth turns to sky
and we keep driving
we keep driving
down
down to Chicago
I’ll go where you go
I’ll stay where you stay
8. One Last Look Back
we both know it wasn’t the first time
somebody else’s husband tried to warn me
about all your little phone calls
and all your fucking coffee meet-ups
and I believed you when you told me that he was so unhinged
and though i had suspicions in my gut
I shoved them down and kept them hid
and now we’re living our new lives
I’ve got my new guy and you’ve got your new wife
and i’ve got years of anxiety to deal with that you helped to create
but I’ve got ways of looking inward
I know you’ll never relate
I know you thought you were really clever
I know you thought it was all okay
you wrote it all down in front of me what you can’t say to my face
I read it all when it was over
you crossed all the Ts, dotted the Is
on how you congratulated me backstage
right after giving her a kiss goodnight
and now we’re living our new lives
I’ve got my new guy and you’ve got your new wife
and i’ve got years of anxiety to deal with that you helped to create
but I’ve got ways of looking inward
I know you’ll never relate
did you ever think of me on the streets of New Orleans?
did you ever wish me dead to make it easier for you in bed?
and now we’re living our new lives
I’ve got my new guy and you’ve got your new wife
and i’ve got years of anxiety to deal with that you helped to create
but I’ve got ways of looking inward
I know you’ll never relate
7. Awkward
I am awkward away from you
fighting for the vision of others to see me as you do and I will pause in my speech to correct my teeth thinking is this how you see me?
iis this how you see me?
twisting my hair in my fingers
is this what i do that gets your gaze to linger?
it’s the subtle seduction of the slightest of curls unfurling all my truths
that I don’t know what I’m doing
bending the light
hit the marks just right
shadows fall
do you see it all?
I am awkward away from you
looming larger than life, yet always out of view
face flushed in crimson
I’m sure that i’m the vision
how do I see the way you see me?